Peter Pan Baby Tan

He's here!

2010-08-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

I know I'm due for a week 33 entry update but Peter Pan Baby decided to show up early!

He arrived last week at 32 weeks 2 days weighing 2.02kg.

I am still in the hospital as I extended my stay to accompany Peter Pan Baby because he's still in the neonatal ICU for further observation.

Will find some time to blog about the birth story when we go home.

So far Peter Pan Baby is doing a-ok. He could breathe on his since the second day, had a bit of jaundice but as of today he's all good.

I've started breastfeeding and expressing milk (which is quite tiring really). But each day is definitely getting easier and better for all of us.

Stay tuned for more updates on Peter Pan Baby! :)

32 weeks

2010-07-27T14:38:00.006+08:00

Tummy at 28 weeks vs. 32 weeks

Not sure if it grew that much but I definitely feel heavier -_-

I'm still at 64.4kg this morning *wipes sweat off forehead*

Approximate calculation:
1st trimester: 1kg
2nd trimester: 8.4kg
28 weeks - 31 weeks: 1kg
31 weeks - 32 weeks: 0kg
Total weight gain so far:10.4kg

So the story of my red/brown spotting continues...

On Sunday/Monday morning at 3am, I woke up to go pee and had diluted blood trickling down the toilet bowl on its own.

At 5am, it was still 'leaking'. So I decided to go see this other gynae at Damansara Specialist Hospital which one kind mommy referred to me.

Apparently a lot of people go to him for complicated pregnancies.

I met him yesterday and he did a pap smear for me and found out that I had cervix erosion.

Good news is that it doesn't affect the baby. Bad news is that I'd have to deal with this bleeding until I deliver.

Apparently each time as it's trying to heal, walking can start to aggravate it again. So I will continue to see this diluted blood for the next 6 weeks.

What caused the cervix erosion could be an infection that I had before or during the pregnancy.

But at least now my mind is at ease that it is not something wrong with Peter Pan Baby and I am not leaking amniotic fluid unconsciously or whatever thoughts I had before this when I didn't have an answer.

The dr. scanned Peter Pan Baby and Peter Pan Baby is currently 1.8kg. Average weight according to the doctor. Weeks ago Peter Pan Baby was considered a little on the big side. Hmm.. so wot's it gonna be? hehe

Everything seems fine with him though and that's all that matters.

I will be going back in 2 weeks time to see this gynae to get my pap smear results and also to check out the maternity ward.

We somehow think that this hospital is closer to home and perhaps if possible to be able to book a private room early, we might switch doctors.

Apart from the bleeding episodes, I still feel the same as the past few weeks.

So yeah, 6 more weeks baybeh!! :)

31 weeks

2010-07-23T09:10:00.002+08:00

Whoops! This entry is super late as I have been real busy at work and once I reach home, the bed is all I'm headed for.

My weight: 64.4kg on Tuesday....

Approximate calculation:
1st trimester: 1kg
2nd trimester: 8.4kg
28 weeks - 30 weeks: 0.4kg
30 weeks - 31 weeks: 0.6kg
Total weight gain so far:10.4kg *sniff* I've officially gone over the 10kg mark.

I had the bloody discharge episode again on Monday night. So I took Tuesday off to rest. And since then, the brown spotting is still around.

These days when I walk, I feel like something's going to drop out of 'there'. I feel real heavy and it's getting pretty hard to sit these days.

The rashes on my legs are becoming worse. What started off from the ankles, has now spread up to my calves. The calamine lotion comes in pretty handy especially right after hot baths.

Constipation is sort of back to visit me.

I find it harder to wake up every morning even though I have had 9 hours of sleep.

But most of all, it's a happy feeling that Peter Pan Baby is still actively squirming inside of me. It gives me all the reassurance in the world.

Since we've set 'the date', I have approximately 6 1/2 more weeks to go!

Bleeding in 3rd trimester

2010-07-15T10:25:00.002+08:00

Yes, I had some bloody discharge yesterday. Another scary episode. Looks like I've been bleeding throughout the whole pregnancy.

Right before lunch time, I went to the toilet to pee and when I wiped, there was bloody discharge on the tissue paper and it was still there even after I kept wiping.

I panicked and went to tell my colleague and decided to call the hospital to see my gynae.

Upside that it was a Wednesday and my gynae is in on Wednesdays but the downside was that he was full!!

So I had to tell the nurse over the phone in front of my quiet lil' office whereby everyone probably heard me, that I was bleeding and I'm 30 weeks pregnant.

The nurse told me to just go in anyway and she'll let the doctor know.

My colleagues dropped me off at the hospital while Peter Pan Daddy was flying down from dunno where some ulu place damn far away and I waited on my own.

I waited and waited and even after Peter Pan Daddy came, there was more waiting. The wait was excruciating. But the good thing was that Peter Pan Baby was still moving around.

Apparently the doctor was delivering a baby so he took quite some time and when he came back, the nurse let me go in first.

The doctor himself doesn't even know why I'm bleeding. He asked us if we did any strenuous activities; travelled long distances; etc. but the answer is no, I've been basically going to work and coming home to laze each day.

He did a scan on Peter Pan Baby and everything seems normal. Peter Pan Baby has grown since the last time we saw him. He is now 1770 grams.

So the doctor just asked me to monitor the flow of the blood and if it turns period-like flow and I experience it with cramps or pain I'd definitely need to make a trip to the labour ward already.

He gave me mcs for the next few days to rest and hopefully it'd all subside by Monday.

And after seeing him, I continued to have the bleed until last night whereby it turned to brown instead.

Up until this moring, my pantyliners are still stained with brown patches. I really hope this goes away soon.

I pray that everything will be alright and that the Lord will continue to watch over us all. Lord, I place my worries upon You and trust that You will make all of this alright. I pray for strength and faith and I continue to trust in You, O'Lord. Amen.

30 weeks

2010-07-14T10:07:00.002+08:00

During the first trimester I told myself that when I reach 30 weeks, it'd be real fast from there.

And finally here I am. At 30 weeks. Feeling very 'kan cheong' and scared at the same time. I hope time passes real fast because I cannot wait to see how Peter Pan Baby looks like :)

But then again I hope he doesn't come out earlier as we haven't purchased all of his stuff just yet.

So stay in there Peter Pan Baby and enjoy swimming while you still can because mommy isn't a big fan of swimming hehe.

I'm 63.8kg this morning....

Approximate calculation:
1st trimester: 1kg
2nd trimester: 8.4kg
28 weeks - 29 weeks: 0.3kg
29 weeks - 30 weeks: 0.1kg
Total weight gain so far: 9.8kg

Maybe there is hope after all that I won't go overboard with my weight if I can maintain it at this steady pace.

I am still in the midst of battling this cold I have. It's sorta subsiding but still there.

I realise my skin is more sensitive these days. The other day I pulled some dry skin off the side of my finger and that part became swollen for a few days -_-

And I recently have these 2 big mosquito bites on my right foot and when I scratched 1 of them, it started to bleed! *faints*

Other than that, my hair/scalp is really weird. It gets oily real fast. And each time I change to a new shampoo and after using a particular brand of shampoo for a few days, my scalp/hair would get oily again.

So now I'm rotating between 3 brands of shampoos every week.

I've been going to the toilet a lot lately. And that also it's because I've been downing water non-stop to help curb this cold.

At work I'd be going to the toilet every hour and at night, I'd be waking up once every 2 hours. Oh what fun! Guess this sort of prepares me for Peter Pan Baby's sleep pattern in future.

I have approximately 8 more weeks to go. I can't wait! I just can't wait!!! :)

At-choo

2010-07-12T14:00:00.002+08:00

I'm officially down with a cold.

It all started off with a sore throat last Thursday. Each time I get a sore throat, I know for sure a cold would be on its way. And probably a slight cough after too.

And true enough during the weekend, my nose became more blocked and my head felt really heavy.

I have been downing heaps of water and orange juice. Finally, yesterday I decided to get Redoxon and hope that this will help in curbing the cold from becoming worse.

Peter Pan Baby was really quiet during the weekend and I was worried that he was sick too.

But today he seems to be back to his active self just that my nose is still stuffed up which makes it a little difficult for me to breathe quietly (the office is really quiet and I think the sound of me breathing through my stuffed nose is really obvious).

I hope this cold eases off soon as it's an additional thing that's keeping me up at nite...

29 weeks

2010-07-06T15:22:00.004+08:00

I'm 63.7kg this morning....

Approximate calculation:
1st trimester: 1kg
2nd trimester: 8.4kg
28 weeks - 29 weeks: 0.3kg
Total weight gain so far: 9.7kg

I recently got myself a bottle of calamine lotion for the rashes on my legs:

And after I purchased it, the rashes don't itch anymore -_-

Nothing much has changed except that I'm feeling rather moody these days.

Shall blog more when I'm feeling better. Til' then, Peter Pan Baby ♥s all of you!! :)

28 weeks

2010-06-29T11:55:00.010+08:00

-- Belly at 23 weeks VS. belly at 28 weeks --

The bump has definitely grown in 5 weeks. And I have approximately 10 more weeks to go so can you imagine how big I'd be then? *gulp*

Stepping on the scale each morning is also another scary task. Especially when you have gained weight over the past week :(

I'm 63.4kg this morning.

Approximate calculation of weight gain so far:
1st trimester: 1kg
2nd trimester: 7.9kg
27 weeks - 28 weeks: 0.5kg
Total weight gain: 9.4kg *sniff*

I experienced my first leg cramp last Saturday night while I was sleeping. Felt those cramps before as I used to take ballet and it happened quite often to me whenever I didn't warm up properly. Painful but bearable I guess.

Nothing much different this week apart from the leg cramp. I am still finding it hard to sleep continuously throughout the night.

Am still very tired throughout the day. I *try* to exercise by walking each time but I feel so tired even after 5 minutes.

Peter Pan Baby on the other hand is getting really active these days. He's always rolling/turning/scurrying around. Sometimes he gives me real hard kicks which makes me wonder if he's showing tantrums in there.

I have approximately 10 more weeks to go since we have not decided a date for the c-sect yet. Can't wait! :)

Tim Tams

2010-06-28T15:59:00.003+08:00

So my mom is obsessed with feeding me. She keeps telling me that she bought heaps of different types of tim tams from her Australia trip and that I should go eat them.

Yes, I'm a fan of tim tams but looking at the rate that I'm gaining weight, I'm trying to be wary about these small lil' things that would give me the unnecessary calories.

I told her that I don't want to have those tim tams because I'm worried about the calories. So she suggested that I consume a piece each day -_-

Oh what fun. Each day I get to look forward to a piece of tim tam -_-

Anyhoo, it didn't help either when my dad added "ya, I can see your face rounder already".

I don't know why but I was a bit disturbed by his remark so I kinda defended myself by telling him it's due to fluid retention.

And he went like "hah! fluid retention". Together with a snicker. Thank you Daddy.

Oh well, the more motivation for me to really lose weight in 2 months+ time.

On another note, over the weekend, I finally got down to buying the other not-so-exciting stuff for Peter Pan Baby:

-- Cotton wool; bottle washing liquid; head to toe cleanser; lotion; bottle & teat brushes --

A lil' conversation I had with Peter Pan Daddy while shopping for the above stuff....

Me: You think the head to toe cleanser is enough ah?

Peter Pan Daddy: Ya... it already states head to toe right?

Me: Well, they have another bottle called 'shampoo' but what if Peter Pan Baby has no hair?

Peter Pan Daddy: Oh yeah, don't get that. I had very little hair when I was a baby.

Me too. I think I was quite bald when I was a baby.

So we're both assuming now that Peter Pan Baby is going to be bohtak. Who else thinks so? :)

Stuff for Peter Pan Mommy

2010-06-25T10:34:00.007+08:00

Last nite, we went to Bebehaus as I wanted to get this tortoise toy that shines stars onto the ceiling from his shell because I erm read that Nicole Richie uses it -_-

Sadly, it was sold out and they're still waiting for the new stock to arrive (which might be today and I'm now contemplating whether I should go back there tonight to get it!).

So anyways, we started looking at other stuff - Peter Pan Daddy browsing the drawers stand; me the other colourful stuff :)

Then I saw a section on breast pumps and started asking more information about them. All along I wasn't sure whether I'd succeed in breastfeeding so it didn't really dawn on me to get a pump (or spend all that money on a pump).

That's why the plan was to borrow the pump off my friend for 2 months to try out before I go back to work after maternity leave.

But Peter Pan Daddy offered to purchase it for me so what the heck! :)

I wanted to get a manual pump but they only sold electric ones so I narrowed it down to the Medela Swing:

Which you can either use the battery-operated function or electric point.

Also, according to the salesgirl, it has this 2-phase technology that mimics a baby sucking/feeding from your boobs. 1st phase would be rapid sucking and then it turns into the 2nd phase of slo-mo suction. Something like that.

And apparently it helps prevent your nipples from becoming too sore too. Which is one of the fears I have.

I actually read through the manual last night and it seems like it's real tedious to wash/sterilise after every pump. Imagine having to go through the whole routine every 2-3 hours in the middle of the night!

So if anyone has any short cut methods on how to quickly wash the pump after use, pleaseeeeee.... I'd be so grateful if you could share!

Apart from the pump, I also bought the below stuff from Earth Mama Angel Baby:

-- Shampoo & Body wash; Milkmaid Tea; C-Mama Healing Salve --

Since I haven't bought any shampoo/body wash for Peter Pan Baby, I thought of trying out this brand since I've read about the big hoo-haa on using organic products for your baby so this is my share of using organic products ok!

The Milkmaid Tea apparently is to help you produce more milk as I've heard many stories about not having enough milk? So I hope this tea would help me in a way.

As I have decided to go ahead with a c-section (a story which I shall leave for another day once I find out the exact date I'd like to go for it), another mother that went through a c-section told me to get some cream/balm for the scar.

And that's where the C-Mama Healing Salve comes in. Apart from scars, it can be used for stretch marks or even rashes as it is a herbal scar & skin balm.

I guess last nite's purchases were the most expensive that I've (or Peter Pan Daddy *koff*) spent on myself so far in this pregnancy. I hope it'd all be real useful when the time comes!

27 weeks check-up

2010-06-24T12:50:00.002+08:00

Had the fastest check-up yesterday.

All is well with Peter Pan Baby. He now weighs 1.142kg.

So the rapid weight gain for the past few weeks is either on my arms, thighs or face -_-

We didn't get any photos of him because he was facing down. Shy I think. Just like his mommy :)

So the next check-up will be in 4 weeks time...

27 weeks

2010-06-22T15:25:00.003+08:00

So... my weight is still increasing non-stop. What's new? I'm a whooping 62.9kg this morning.

It feels real weird to see the scale at sixties. Somehow makes you want to just dig a hole and never face the world again.

Until you console yourself that it's the baby gaining weight and not take note of those flabby arms or chubby face.

Approximate calculation below:
1st trimester: 1kg
2nd trimester: 7.3kg
26 weeks - 27 weeks: 0.6kg
Total weight gain so far: 8.9kg - might as well round it up to 9kg *faints*

And I still have 13 more weeks to go... I am very very afraid of not being able to lose all this weight after Peter Pan Baby is out.

So far, I have had rashes on my feet. It itches. I scratch them non-stop until a point whereby they dry up and have no signs of disappearing soon.

I haven't been getting much sleep the past few nights since Friday. It all started with the joint/muscle pain in my right leg and then my right arm had its turn.

Apart from that, my lower back and tailbone were aching and Peter Pan Baby just cannot stop shuffling/rolling around at night.

It seems like he's rolling around 24/7. I wonder if he's having nightmares whereby they're causing him to jolt every so often or he's throwing tantrums in there.

Whenever I lie on my side, I can feel him scurrying which kind of feels ticklish hehe.

Either way, I think he's just bored. And he keeps me up at night most of the time. I guess I'm thankful to be able to feel him this often rather than not considering what a worrier I am.

Will be seeing Peter Pan Baby tomorrow as tomorrow is the day for my next check-up. Whoopee! Can't wait to see him and also that means I'm on half day! :)

Breakfast

2010-06-18T08:57:00.002+08:00

Each day for breakfast at work, I will make myself 2 pieces of bread folded with chicken/pork floss + a little mayo spread.

I've been packing the same thing for weeks now to bring to work.

But I notice that each loaf bought on a Sunday, expires on Thursdays.

So every Friday I try to have something different just so I don't get bored of eating bread with floss & mayo because I would be real lazy to think of new things to eat.

Friday's breakfast - so far I've tried the below:
- Individually packaged cream bread by Gardenia
- Twiggies
- Roti canai from the canteen downstairs in my office building
- Raisin & cheese bread from Berry's
- Lemon crisps
- Arnott's cookies
- And today, I had a huge @ss white choc macadamia cookie from Coffee Bean!

Any other suggestions to spice up my Friday breakfast menu a little? :)

26 weeks

2010-06-15T15:46:00.003+08:00

Ouh.. I'm a little sad as I stepped onto the scale this morning: 62.3kg it read *sniff*

Approximate calculation below:
1st trimester: 1kg
2nd trimester: 6.4
25 weeks - 26 weeks: 0.9kg

Total weight gain so far: 8.3kg *gulp*

Was it due to the waffles with belgian chocolate & ice-cream at Theobrama's last weekend? *slouches*

Looks like my aim of only putting on 10kg throughout this whole pregnancy is going to fail big time.

But other than the depressing weight gain, all is well at the moment.

I am finding it hard to sleep at night as I'm real worried about lying on my back completely so every 2 hours I'd wake up and ensure that I'm sleeping on my side.

Or at least at a 45 degree angle -_-

Occasionally I do feel a slight pain on my lower abdomen. Especially when I cough too hard.

My legs are starting to get slightly swollen. And I only noticed this because when I went for a pedicure last weekend, the girl told me to go for some leg massage specially for pregnant women to ensure that the swelling doesn't get worse.

Got such thing ah?

Peter Pan Baby on the other hand, has been real active. But there are days whereby he's pretty quiet like last Saturday whereby I was worrying non-stop and kept asking Peter Pan Daddy how? how? how?

Peter Pan Baby's rolls/kicks have been quite prominent these days that when I stare at my belly, I can see him "scurrying" around :)

And I think I've recently started to experience his hiccups. It's rather faint and at a constant pace. Super cute!

My next check-up with the gynae would be next Wed.

8 more days until I get to see a glimpse of Peter Pan Baby again.

14 more weeks until I get to see the real Peter Pan Baby!

More baby stuff!

2010-06-14T16:21:00.005+08:00

Woohoo! Look what we got over the weekend:

Yep, Peter Pan Daddy finally made his first purchase for his son. The car seat!

I don't think he did much research on car seats.

However, we both saw the demo at Bebehaus and found that this brand Concord apparently has Auto Bild - some safety feature which is super hardy and safe so that probably made us decide on getting this car seat.

And even baby car seats have different manufacturing dates ok! It's like buying a car altogether.

We got the 2009 model because who really cares about new and improved finishing or the type of seat material used?

Peter Pan Daddy wanted to choose blue -_- I think most of Peter Pan Baby's stuff are in blue so I suggested that we take brown instead.

Matches my black car also *koff*

Other than that, I bought:

-- Washcloths for bath time! --

My friend told me to get these so I got a pack of 10. Hope that's enough.

.... and:

-- Breast milk storage bags --

Because I wouldn't know how long I can breastfeed until so I'm just gonna try using storage bags first and if I do succeed in breastfeeding, I might get the storage bottles instead.

That's it for now. I keep checking my baby check list and it seems like there are still so many little stuff here and there to get.

I hope I will know when to use what when the time arrives. Wish me luck! :)

In pregnancy, you'd know you are big when:

2010-06-11T16:33:00.003+08:00

1) You brush your teeth and your t-shirt becomes wet due to your belly touching the wet counter top.

2) You need to stand a little further away from the cupboard when you open the door in case it hits your belly.

3) You start walking like Samo Hung.

4) You brush away excess powder or fallen eyelashes from your face and it lands on your tummy.

5) You can't bend over comfortably to apply lotion to your feet.

6) Your wedding band doesn't fit anymore (especially when it was half a size bigger when you first bought it).

7) Your belly sticks onto your thighs when you sit.

8) Your love handles begin from above your hips.

9) Your chair squeaks each time you sit down.

10) You start shopping for "L" sized clothes.

11) and a shoe size bigger.

12) The big bed that you normally sleep in seems to suddenly lack space.

13) People start staring at your belly.

14) It gets real hard to get out from a car. Or takes you ages to do so.

15) The toilet seat starts cutting into your butt cheeks -_-

16) And last but not least, your baby kicks you non-stop due to the snug clothes you're wearing.

What else did I leave out? :)

Counting kicks

2010-06-10T14:11:00.003+08:00

I have started counting since last week. Trying to get myself in the routine of doing so but I do admit I've failed to do it a few days sometimes.

I know that you're suppose to count 10 kicks but my big question is how do you differentiate Peter Pan Baby's hiccups from his kicks?

I've read that hiccups do not contribute as the number of kicks so I'm worried I'm counting wrongly. Hence, I've been making myself count to 15 kicks instead -_-

He's been moving a lot lately like almost ALL the time and I'm grateful for it since I'm a worrier and tend to think something's not right if he hasn't moved in a while (or if I did not notice any movement).

His movements are so frequent that even when I sleep at night these days, I can still feel him moving and his movements sort of keep me awake.

But whatever it is, I do hope and pray that all is well and will be alright :)

Sleepless nights

2010-06-09T13:49:00.002+08:00

I haven't been getting continuous sleep throughout the night these days.

It's either I'd need to wake up to pee in the middle of the night, or Peter Pan Baby would be active throughout the night, or my mind would still be working even when I'm sleeping.

I can't seem to find a comfortable position either. I've been reading up online that it's bad if you sleep on your back and that you should sleep on your side especially on your left.

I've tried sleeping completely on my left side but each time I do so, I'm paranoid that I'm squashing Peter Pan Baby.

It doesn't help either that each time I lay on my side, Peter Pan Baby starts moving around resulting in me worrying about whether he's frantically trying to tell me that I'm hurting him.

I've even read that you should put pillows under your bump to support it but how is that possible really? If you do put a pillow to support your bump when you lie on your side, won't the pillow sort of throw you back into your back position?

I hope I master the technique of the sleeping position soon because these sleepless nights have been making me real tired at work.

It gets even worse right after lunch *yawn*

And I can't even reach for coffee. Or tea. *slouches*

25 weeks

2010-06-08T14:02:00.003+08:00

61.4kg this morning. I guess I kind of maintained my weight throughout the week by cutting back on ice-cream and cakes. And of course rice too!

Approximate calculation below:
1st trimester: 1kg
2nd trimester: 6.3kg
24 weeks - 25 weeks: 0.1kg

Total weight gain so far: 7.4kg

I *think* my baby bump has grown bigger recently. But I shall refrain from posting photos just yet as I would really like to compare it at 28 weeks :)

I say this because I am seriously running out of clothes to wear. The ones that I could wear before even with the baby bump, I find them snug these days.

So I guess the bump's definitely getting bigger or either that I'm growing bigger everywhere.

I even stopped wearing my wedding band as the other day while I was trying to remove it, I bruised the whole finger as it was too tight.

I really think everywhere is expanding bit by bit.

The pregnancy rashes on my belly is starting to itch. I do apply body lotion onto specific dots but it doesn't seem to help.

Maybe I should get a cream from my gynae the next time I see him.

I find that my thighs are increasing in size too. And how do I know this is because if I were to wear a dress, my thighs kind of stick to each other and I start sweating in that area damn gross I know.

I recently cut my hair even shorter. Up until my chin. I hope it grows out nicely just in time for confinement.

I'm convinced that by the use of Benefit's Rebelite, my skin has become extremely smoother. If you haven't tried it, I totally recommend it.

It's tinted moisturiser with SPF. Almost like BB cream but with more moisturising properties. You just have to try it to believe it! :)

Peter Pan Baby is becoming more active lately. Especially at night when everyone is fast asleep, he'll be rolling around and nudging me occasionally.

I seriously can't wait to meet him!! 15 more weeks y'all!! :)

Almost there!

2010-06-07T12:39:00.005+08:00

Ever since we knew we were expecting a baby boy, the shopping started!

We planned to buy some stuff every month just so we have everything spreaded out which won't be too costly for us.

On the list of baby stuff to get, I'm in charge of getting every other thing except for the stroller, car seat and cot (because those things are quite boring I guess Peter Pan Daddy can decide on those things better).

So last weekend, I finally got down to getting one of my larger purchases:

The Tommee Tippee package whereby it has an electronic steam steriliser, 4 bottles and a brush.

I got 10% off because I'm officially a member of Mothercare (so you can imagine how much I've spent at Mothercare to become a member).

Another thing which isn't essential but I knew I always wanted to get for Peter Pan Baby was this Sleep Bear which I first saw in Bebehaus:

How can one resist cuddling him? The bear is super soft and at the same time has a monitor embedded in him whereby it can play up to 6 different sounds:
1) White noise
2) Womb
3) Lullaby
4) Ocean surf
5) Heart beat
6) Car ride

And apparently the sounds help to soothe babies (and I really hope that it does!).

Needless to say, this bear was a bit on the expensive side but considering it is the only toy Peter Pan Baby will ever have until he's probably old enough to appreciate toys, it was worth it.

When Peter Pan Baby is old enough to roll/turn around, I guess I'd have to sleep with the bear to avoid any accidents (whereby I get to cuddle the bear *koff*) and remove the monitor to be near Peter Pan Baby instead (that is if the sounds really do work on him!).

At Bebehaus, I also got this hooded towel:

And the above 2 purchases from Bebehaus helped make me be a member of Bebehaus too.

I am now slowly turning into members of all baby shops soon -_-

The next big thing on my list would be the Fisher-Price rocking chair. So that'll be next month's update :)

Sanrio loots!

2010-06-04T12:36:00.006+08:00

Last weekend, we were in Singapore in time for the Big Singapore Sale!

It was super crowded probably due to the long weekend as well. I had this phobia that someone might crash into my belly.

I kept holding my belly as though shielding it from others and also to warn them that hello pregnant lady coming through!

But no matter how crowded Takashimaya was, I had to barge in to go check out the stuff at Sanrio. Stuff were on 20% sale!!

I ended up buying nothing for myself but a few things for Peter Pan Baby. So many cute pink useless stuff to get for baby girls but since Peter Pan Baby is a boy, he saved me lots of money! :)

-- Cinnamoroll handkerchief and Pon Pon Purin hand towel for erm feeding/burping time I guess --

-- A Shinkansen pouch to store his pacifiers when we bring him out next time :) --

-- Bath towels! But the towel on the left is actually from Bathing Ape which originally I wanted to get for myself but since it looks like something from BAPE kids, Peter Pan Baby can have it :) --

Hope Sanrio makes more stuff for boys soon!

Things that I suddenly miss lately...

2010-06-03T10:23:00.002+08:00

Ever since I got pregnant, I became real cautious about what I eat or drink.

At the start, I couldn't get used to not making my cup of coffee in the morning and was trying real hard to stay awake at work.

But after a while, I got used to living without coffee.

However, recently, I started realising I do miss a few things such as:

- Not being able to have my eggs sunny side up. Fried eggs are seriously boring to the max. And having Peter Pan Daddy eat them in front of you doesn't make it any more fun either.

- Not being able to have a cup of green tea after every full meal. I especially miss drinking it after lunch at work to help me digest the food and stay awake.

- Not being able to have raw hotate or lobster or sushi :( At first, I thought it didn't bother me because one can do without raw food for a while but I don't know why recently I've been craving for it.

Apart from food, I really miss being able to shop for normal-sized pretty clothes. I saw a few dresses lately and miss that feeling of just grabbing them off the rack because they're 'free' size.

And I can't just grab them off the rack because I wouldn't know how big I'd be even after delivering. So no point taking chances and wasting money that way.

Since the start of the pregnancy, I already miss watching horror/weird/gory movies. So guess what? Peter Pan Daddy and I are going to watch Shrek this Friday night instead -_-

Not that I have anything against Shrek but I would love the option of being able to watch everything. Don't get me wrong, I'm a big fan of cartoons too!

But at the end of the day, after all this, the one thing that I know I'd miss the most is having Peter Pan Baby "flying around" in me.

So I better cherish this moment :)

24 weeks pregnant today!

2010-06-01T12:25:00.003+08:00

Officially done with my 2nd trimester right? *gulp*

Hello 3rd trimester!

I'm 61.3kg today :(

Approximate calculation below:
1st trimester: 1kg
12 weeks - 23 weeks: 5.1kg
23 weeks - 24 weeks: 1.2kg

Total weight gain so far: 7.3kg

Well, I guess I had to pay the price for stuffing my face in rice and ice-cream last Fri-Sun which resulted in a 1.2kg weight gain in a week! *sniff*

It was a long weekend ok! And I did loads of walking due to shopping which made me really hungry! *defensive*

I hope all the fats went to Peter Pan Baby and not my arms, thighs, or FACE! Yep, chubby cheeks for Peter Pan Baby pleaseeeeeeee!!! :)

Didn't take a photo of my belly this week as it probably would look the same as last week. I shall take a photo of it in another 3-4 weeks time and we shall compare it with last week's photo.

Other than the extreme weight gain, nothing much has changed. But I do get tired very easily nowadays. Walking short distance also makes me wanna lie down for 10 minutes after.

Peter Pan Baby on the other hand, seems to be enjoying himself each day rolling and swimming around. Each time he does a big move, I'll ask Peter Pan Daddy to come feel it and Peter Pan Baby just stops.

I think he can hear me calling out to Peter Pan Daddy. Super cheeky or what!

Anyways, I really really hope I won't get too big during the 3rd trimester. I don't wanna be tired and uncomfortable at the same time.

16 more weeks to go y'all!!

Pregnancy rashes

2010-05-31T15:44:00.002+08:00

Last weekend, my belly was filled with rashes and it got to a point whereby it kinda freaked me out.

So although I already knew the answer because I consulted my gynae before, I still had to go and ask Peter Pan Daddy to surf online to see if these rashes are harmful to Peter Pan Baby because I need constant reassurance like that.

And according to this site online, it's pretty harmless to you and your baby except for the itch. But the weird thing is that my rashes don't itch. They're just there on my tummy like a form of decor -_-

Anyhoo, as we read on, apparently 70% of women who have it give birth to boys and this is due to the hypothesis that the male fetal DNA acts as a skin irritant.

More hair and pregnancy rashes. How fun!

Well, I guess it's better than getting acne all over your face, huh?

*touch wood* I hope I didn't just jinx my face. Ok, I probably just did by ~~saying it out loud~~ typing it out.

More fun stuff! :)

2010-05-27T14:00:00.005+08:00

Look what my brother & SIL got Peter Pan Baby:

-- Thomas the Train bib --

-- Pooh set!!!! --

I almost wanted to get this Pooh set at Babyland the other time. Peter Pan Baby's going to be all Pooh-ed out!

I wonder if it'd be too corny accessorising Peter Pan Baby with a Winnie the Pooh anklet from Poh Kong? hehe

My other just-gave-birth-friend passed me these clips:

How cute are they? Though primarily used for lampins, it can be pinned onto Peter Pan Baby's clothes as a fashion statement.

How fashionable would Peter Pan Baby be with his Winnie the Pooh bodysuit, anklet and fashion pin? :)

23 weeks

2010-05-26T12:30:00.002+08:00

Am at 60.1kg at the moment.

Approximate calculation below:
1st trimester: 1kg
12 weeks - 22 weeks: 5kg
22 weeks - 23 weeks: 0.1kg

Total weight gain so far: 6.1kg

I don't know why my baby bump still looks so small on photos. My friend suggested that I measure my waist. I haven't gotten down to doing that.

My brown discharge came back last Friday. It lasted through the whole of Saturday so on Saturday nite, I decided to insert the Canesten pill that my gynae gave me from the last check-up which was awfully painful.

The Canesten pill is like the panadol menstrual pill but slightly bigger.

2 days later, I started having pink/bright red discharge *faints*

So on Monday itself, I went to see my gynae and again he had to use the clamper to check down there *double faints*

He told me to monitor the discharge and if the brown discharge/thrush really doesn't bother me, then I don't have to continue with the other 2 Canesten pills as the pink discharge may scare me even more. True 'dat!

We also consulted the gynae for the price of natural birth vs. c-sect at Prince Court Hospital:

Natural birth - RM3.5k (inclusive of 1 night stay)
Plus epidural - RM1k
Plus vacuum - RM600

C-sect - RM8.5k (inclusive of 2 nights stay)

I did ask the gynae whether it's common to go through an episiotomy if we opt for natural birth and he said not really, it only happens in 20% of cases.

But the worst part is that he can only tell me if I need one there and then on the day of birth -_-

Hence, no conclusion as to which method we'll be choosing yet as we're suppose to wait and see how big Peter Pan Baby will be at the later stage of the pregnancy.

Other than that, Peter Pan Baby's kicks have been getting stronger recently.

He particularly likes to move/roll around at night when I'm about to sleep. I will keep telling him to stop playing but I guess he's having loads of fun in there.

I have begun to feel his nudges/kicks beside my navel. Not too sure if it's getting a little tight in there for him that he needs to rise up to my navel level.

He now weighs 600 grams and according to sites online, he's only suppose to be weighing 500 grams at 23 weeks -_-"

Whatever it is, I hope he's healthy and growing normally.

Nowadays, I can only sleep for 2-3 hours whereby I'll wake up to pee and then take a long time to fall asleep again. So I'm really tired most of the time.

I cannot get enough of the chocolate chip ice-cream from Baskin Robbins. I keep craving it each weekend and occasionally when we're out during weekdays.

I'm starting to countdown on my own now. Each day, I'll look at the calendar and count the weeks over and over again although I already know how many weeks more there is.

17 more weeks to go!!

Maternity Jeans

2010-05-20T12:47:00.003+08:00

When I first got pregnant, I realised I was super bloated. I could still fit into all of my old clothes but only the bottoms were a little uncomfortable for me.

I didn't buy any new pants or jeans, only maternity tights and leggings as most of my clothes are dresses anyways.

However, I found this site Queen Bee which sells really nice maternity wear although a bit on the expensive side.

The first time around, I purchased a pair of white ankle length jeans from them as the blue one was out of stock in my size.

But the other day, I went back to the site and the blue jeans was in stock!

So although they're the same design/pattern, I decided to get the blue one too! :)

And today, Peter Pan Daddy has finally picked it up from the post office for me as it was an insured package!

Yay, I finally have a pair of decent jeans to wear once again! And they're real comfortable too!

-- picture taken off Queen Bee's site --

Detailed Scan

2010-05-19T09:40:00.002+08:00

Finally did it yesterday!

The scan took exactly 30 minutes. The Fetal Maternal Doctor scanned Peter Pan Baby from head to toe.

So far, Peter Pan Baby looks alright and it is confirmed once again that he's a boy.

The doctor checked for the nasal bone to see the likelihood of down syndrome and also for cleft lip. All looks good.

Peter Pan Baby has this bubble thingy inside of him which means that he's drinking water and it's being accumulated in his bladder which means his kidneys are functioning.

He has five little fingers and toes on both hands and legs. His hand was stagnant at the thumbs-up position the whole time yesterday. I wonder if that was his way of telling us everything's alright.

We even saw him open his mouth for a bit and the doctor was pointing out Peter Pan Baby's tongue to us but as we are no experts in ultrasound, I couldn't make it out -_-

Ok, those are the only things that I could remember as the other parts of the body seems a bit too complex for me to comprehend (partly due to the fact that I always failed bio in school).

But overall, Peter Pan Baby's measurements were plotted into graphs and he's growing right on track! *waves pom-poms in the air for Peter Pan Baby*

Peter Pan Baby was so cute. Lying comfortably on the placenta.

The doctor said that Peter Pan Baby's a friendly baby for scanning. He said it made his life so much easier apparently and with a friendly baby like Peter Pan Baby, it made it hard for him to stop scanning hehe.

Maybe Peter Pan Baby could sense that I was a worrier so he nicely positioned himself for the scan to put my mind at ease.

Now that that's done. I just hope that the whole pregnancy would carry on smoothly without any further complications :)

22 weeks

2010-05-18T09:19:00.004+08:00

Boohoo! I'm officially 60kg today. So now I have a better understanding of how 60kg people feel like and how imbalance you can be -_-

Approximate calculation below:
1st trimester: 1kg
12 weeks - 21 weeks: 4.3kg
21 weeks - 22 weeks: 0.7kg (thanks to all that ice-cream and cakes)

Total weight gain so far: 6kg (eeek! I guess it's pretty hard to keep to my target of only 10kg then as I have 4 more months to go *sniff*)

I don't know why my baby bump doesn't look as big in photos but in real life it's seriously huge!!!

I feel kinda ok so far. Apart from the usual upper and lower backaches; joint/muscle pain in my arms; occasional dizziness & headaches; constipation.

Constipation has recently started for me. The longest I've gone without pooping would be 2 days. On the 3rd day, I'd start panicking.

I find it hard to walk long distances without panting nowadays.

I cannot stop myself from having a scoop of ice-cream after dinner or a slice of cake if ice-cream is unavailable.

I told my mom that I've been eating lots of ice-cream and cakes and she was like 'eat-lah!'.

Then I told her it isn't very healthy and she was like 'then don't eat so much-lah!'.

Wah, this kind of advice I can also tell myself lor -_-

Anyways, all is good for now. The doctor did warn me that things may get more taxing and tiring when I grow bigger. So not looking forward to that.

I hope I'd still be able to sleep and sit comfortably when I'm bigger.

My skin's been so much better after switching to the moisturiser for dry skin. I guess I'm categorised under the dry skin range now. Part & parcel of growing old.

Still contemplating my options of going for natural birth or c-sect at this stage. I know I can be this indecisive but hey, still got 4 more months to decide rite??

On a more materialistic note, my wardrobe is seriously boring right now. I don't have much clothes to wear at this stage so I'm basically recycling all my A-line dresses.

Not planning on buying too many baggy new clothes as I might not wear them after pregnancy (if I can slim down that is dunno why so confident).

For bottoms, I've splurged on a pair of ankle-length maternity jeans online and waiting for it to arrive. Other than that, I've bought many maternity tights from Topshop as they are super comfortable compared to the usual tights and I foresee even after pregnancy I'd be wearing them forever! :)

That's all for now. Hoping that the anomaly scan this evening will turn out well. Please keep us in your prayers thank you.

Hot/cold pad

2010-05-17T10:58:00.003+08:00

Meet Mr. Green Bear from Guardian:

He has become my best friend over the weekend.

He's a hot/cold pad which I purchased for my hurting arms and is marketed for kids' boo boos but who cares because I'm a kid at heart.

Super value - I can use it. Peter Pan Baby can use it.

Since Saturday, my right arm was hurting max. Then on Sunday, both arms were hurting. And today, my left arm is hurting.

The pain is like those muscle/joint pain.

But with Mr. Green Bear (I chose the name by the way, it wasn't written on the pack. I'm so original I know), you can just shove him into the microwave for 30 seconds and he gives you heat for the next 30 minutes.

Temporary relief but better than sucking all the pain in.

I told my mom that I probably have arthritis and she called me crazy as I'm too young to get it.

And she started giving me this whole lecture about how I shouldn't bathe and wash my hair during confinement or this pain will get worse.

Yep, she just jinxed it for me. 'Cos I don't think I can stand not bathing or washing my hair for a whole month!

You mean after doing your business, you can't even wash and clean up the below area? How sickening is that?!

And to think that you'd be bleeding after birth and not being able to wash up makes things sound even more gross.

I'm just hoping that this pain in my arms will get better soon and certainly not worse after I've delivered Peter Pan Baby.

Oh, the joys of being a woman.

P/s: My anomaly scan is tomorrow! Please be ok Peter Pan Baby pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

P/p/s: I've created a twitter account - @PeterPanMommy. Now to figure out how to link it to this blog. And this is as savvy as I can get at this internet age.

Socks

2010-05-14T13:35:00.004+08:00

I read on this lady's blog a while back that apparently Baby Gap's socks are the best for babies because they really don't run.

I didn't even know that we had Baby Gap in Malaysia until Peter Pan Daddy told me that there's a store at The Gardens.

As we were at The Gardens for dinner yesterday because I wanted to find a dinner dress for a wedding, I decided to go check out the socks at Baby Gap.

They had a few selections but as I already bought a few pairs of socks from Mothercare, I got a set of baby blue socks just to try out.

And at the same time I saw many cute bodysuits. If only I could buy them all.

I ended up getting this bodysuit with printed buses on it because it was the only bodysuit with a zipper in the middle which we don't have any of. I think all of the bodysuits we've purchased so far are with buttons.

I really want to become a member as the baby clothes there are so cute! But you can only become a member when you accumulate RM700 within 6 months.

Yep, I signed up for it. Another RM572 to go -_-

And I didn't manage to buy my dress. Recently I've been spending less on myself. Each time I pass a store that sells stuff related to babies, I'd be sure to go in and come out with something.

I know it's like shopping for someone else but the feeling's so different. You're shopping for someone else technically but the stuff would belong to you.

Aiyah I don't know how to explain-lah. Go have a baby!

21 weeks check-up

2010-05-13T16:21:00.004+08:00

I've always had yellow discharge since the start of the pregnancy but my gynae said that if it isn't foul-smelling or itchy, then I have nothing to worry about.

But on Monday, I encountered stringy yellow discharge with a tinge of brown. And even my undies had dark brown stains.

So I got a bit panicky and moved forward my gynae's appointment from next week to yesterday.

At the same time, my belly was cramping. Not at the lower abdomen area but at the sides of my belly.

I never felt that before because the last cramp that I felt was the lower abdomen area whereby my gynae said that it's normal as my skin was stretching to make way for a bigger belly.

So anyways, I saw my gynae yesterday and described my discharge to him and he thinks it's thrush. Apparently we all have it but it's being contained by other bacteria just that we're more prone to get it during pregnancy.

He told me that most women get it during their pregnancy but just probably never thought anything of it so did not mention it to him.

It doesn't hurt you or the baby but if you want to get it treated you can. Just that it may or may not come back after a while.

He wanted to take a swab so he told me to relax and said it's just like a pap smear. He asked me whether I've done a pap smear before and I said no.

So he inserted this clamper thingy underneath really slowly and gently but once he pushed it in further, it was SUPER HORRIBLY PAINFUL!!!!

CAN YOU IMAGINE GIVING BIRTH TO A BABY FROM THAT SAME HOLE?!!!!

He told me that he'll send the sample for testing and if I don't hear back from them means it's nothing serious.

Regarding the belly cramps, he reckons that I need to slow down and rest. Apparently it's the way my body lets me know that I've done too much.

I don't remember doing anything too much except for walking around Tropicana City Mall & Pavilion on Sunday.

Shop for one day and the pain lasts for 3 days. Scary.....

Anyhoo, all is well. Peter Pan Baby now weighs 500 grams. Apparently he's a little bit on the bigger side as he's only suppose to weigh 400 grams this week *gulp*

I guess he's going to be a big baby huh?

Anyways, I weighed myself this morning and I'm 59.3kg.

Approximate calculation below:

1st trimester: 1kg
12 weeks - 20 weeks: 3.7kg
20 weeks - 21 weeks: 0.6kg

Total weight gain so far: 5.3kg

Peter Pan Baby's kicks/nudges have been getting stronger. Sometimes I can feel him 'swimming' in there. Such a happy and weird feeling at the same time.

But extremely reassuring for worriers like me. Seriously, each time he moves, I feel so relieved.

The anomaly scan has been postponed once again to next week. Hopefully there won't be any other changes again. I really really want to know for sure that Peter Pan Baby is a-ok!

Other than the above drama during the start of the week, everything's pretty much alright at the moment.

19 more weeks to go! I know it's a bit too early to countdown but I.just.can't.wait!!!! :)

Wipes

2010-05-10T14:39:00.006+08:00

I know that these days our lives are filled with all sorts of wipes such as wet wipes to wipe our hands and even make-up wipes to help remove make-up at your convenience...

But look what I found at Takashimaya:

- Boogie wipes!! -

How cool is that? The purple pack is grape-scented. Probably smells really good!!

And I know I already bought a cloth to clean Peter Pan Baby's mouth and gums but this particular wipes looked too cute to resist:

- Tooth tissues -

I only bought 1 pack as I don't really know if it tastes weird for Peter Pan Baby.

All these wipes are amazing! Definitely helps make your life easier.

And though the next thing isn't really new, I just found them too cute to resist although I already have like a stack of them:

Got them at Babyland at Sunway Giza. Each costs RM4.90. The duck (or is it a chick?) bib is super cute!

I'm so amazed with the stuff out there designed for babies.

It's like shopping in a whole new dimension for stuff that you have a passion for!! :)

Yesterday, I finally got myself the Juicy Couture baby bag. I bought the black one as I'm worried about staining the baby pink one after a while.

The bag comes with a free blanket that you can use for changing diapers when you're out. And some other thing which I didn't really look at closely as it's all wrapped up nicely now sitting in my cupboard waiting for Peter Pan Baby to make his first outing!

Next month, I'm planning to get the Fisher-Price automatic rocking chair. They have heaps of selections and each time I visit the chairs, I would spend at least 15 minutes changing my decision from the last time.

So I'm hoping that I'd be able to decide once and for all next month.

Wonder if I should get the play gym too. Hmmm....

I caved!

2010-05-06T14:34:00.002+08:00

Just as I wrote about how I've been resisting ice-creams and cakes on Tuesday, I finally caved and had a slice of the White Chocolate Macadamia cake from Secret Recipe on Tuesday night and a bar of Mars ice-cream yesterday.

I made up for it last nite by having a chicken salad for dinner. But I just can't stop thinking about ice-creams or cakes ever since.

Think healthy! Think healthy! *psychos self*

20 weeks

2010-05-04T11:31:00.007+08:00

I'm 20 weeks today! I'm officially halfway into this pregnancy. Can't wait for the next 20 weeks to go by as I really really want to see Peter Pan Baby!! :)

- Weighed myself this morning and I'm at 58.7kg. No doubt I'm getting heavier each day eeek!

Approximate calculation:

1st trimester: 1kg
12 weeks - 19 weeks: 3.2kg
19 weeks - 20 weeks: 0.5kg

Total weight put on so far: 4.7kg

- Took a photo of my tummy:

I know it looks the same as 2 weeks ago but I swear in real life it looks massive.

- My gums have been bleeding whenever I use a non-electric toothbrush. I've been so afraid to see blood that I've stopped flossing at the start of this pregnancy.

- Peter Pan Baby's movements are really low still. He normally taps me around my lower abdomen area. Wonder when he'll rise higher in my tummy.

Other than that, I can feel him tapping me more often these days. Even when I'm sitting at my desk at work. He's just so cute with his lil' taps.

The other day Peter Pan Daddy and I went to watch Iron Man 2 in the cinema and Peter Pan Baby was tapping me non-stop. I think it was too loud for him?

- The skin on my face is still rather dry no matter how much moisturiser I apply. I recently changed to a moisturiser for dry skin (previously using a combination skin one) so I'm hoping that that'd work.

- I am beginning to love ice-creams and cakes again. But I do refrain myself by replacing those cravings with milk or fruits instead. Or water. And by looking at my mom's Arnott's cookies, I sometimes feel like just taking 1 piece but also refrain myself.

- My pregnancy rashes on my tummy have been visiting me again. The skin part especially around the navel hurts. But goes away after a day. And comes back the next few days or so.

- I have been getting headaches on and off lately. But they aren't as bad as the ones I experienced during the 1st trimester.

- I'm currently becoming more conscious about people who know that I'm pregnant checking out my tummy area when I walk past them. I know that I'm suppose to look this way but I somehow feel that they're checking out how big I am.

- I read in some books and blogs that it may seem awkward for people to touch your tummy without you inviting them to do so. I kinda personally like it because I feel that it's a way for Peter Pan Baby to feel loved with so many people 'touching' him.

Other than the above, I feel pretty alright at the moment. Still tired and sleepy most of the time but I've always been this way so what's new? :)

Will be going for the anomaly scan next Tuesday. Can't wait to see Peter Pan Baby again and hopefully all is well.

Is Peter Pan Baby really that hungry?

2010-05-03T12:51:00.004+08:00

My dad cuts me fruits to bring to work each day and last Thursday, he cut me 3 slices of pear but I didn't even eat one.

As I entered the car after work, I gave it back to my dad and told him that I didn't have any appetite to eat them.

My mom told me to eat them anyways because even though I'm not hungry, she reckons Peter Pan Baby is and needs all the food he can get.

She said that I should indeed eat more if not Peter Pan Baby will turn out real skinny and unhealthy.

My mom threatened to tell Peter Pan Baby next time that I starved him while I was pregnant with him. And come to think of it, I don't even think it's a threat. She probably is going to tell him anyways.

So the real question here is do I really stuff my face in food when I'm not exactly hungry and not extremely full?

Birthday stuff

2010-05-03T12:12:00.006+08:00

My birthday just passed and I realise how cute it is when your friends start giving you gifts that relate to your pregnancy/baby for your birthday.

I'm so happy to receive these gifts because it would mean that I need not spend money on them myself. Big hugs to you guys you know who you are.

My brother got me this book called 'Baby Love' that is suppose to prepare you before your baby arrives.

So far I've only read the first chapter and I found some useful tips such as:

- Try to have some 'me' time before the baby arrives. Plan to take a few days off work before those first contractions arrive since you will never ever have your 'me' time again.

- If your baby is below 2 years of age and paid work is unavoidable, try to switch to part-time instead because babies need your care and attention to shape them to become what they will be in the future. Even if the care & attention just comes from mommy and daddy alone.

- Will be good to give your baby all the skin contact he needs be it cuddles, just lying on your bare chest, kisses etc.

- And the part for fathers whereby they shouldn't whine when the baby cries in the middle of the night because that would make mothers feel like they have to deal with 2 babies.

- And that fathers should also be understanding and not assume that mothers know everything about what to do or how to deal with the baby.

That's all I can remember from the first chapter :)

Other gifts I received from my friends were:

- Stretch mark cream -

Which I have yet to use because I'm quite lazy I gotta admit. I've been diligently applying body lotion after each shower and that already sucks the life outta me.

I'd probably only start using it when I see stretch marks appear which by then is already too late but psychologically would make me feel better I guess.

- Breast pads -

This same friend bought me nipple cream too but I forgot to take a photo of it.

- Head cushion support -

How cute is this! If it was bigger I'd be using it myself :)

Thanks so much for these gifts everybody!! Really really do appreciate them!

I have a new alarm clock

2010-04-28T12:45:00.002+08:00

Peter Pan Baby woke me up this morning with his tiny kicks/flutters.

No problem waking up at 7am today :)

19 weeks

2010-04-27T08:51:00.004+08:00

1) Weighed myself this morning and I am seriously shocked by my weight. It's currently at 58.2kg. I've put on 1.4kg over the past week! Eeek! Why the sudden weight gain? I've been eating as per normal.

The only thing I can think of is this one day that I helped myself to 6-8 pieces of Arnott's cream cookies (yep, at one go) that was too good to resist. But that was it.

Total weight gain so far: 4.2kg

Approximate calculation below:
1st trimester: 1kg
12 weeks - 18 weeks: 1.8kg
18 weeks - 19 weeks: 1.4kg

But 1.4kgs in 1 week?! Seriously shocking!!

2) I used to feel Peter Pan Baby's movement on my lower right side but since last nite, it has shifted to the lower left side. He probably flipped over to the left.

(And I really hope he's a leftie because Peter Pan Daddy and I are both lefties so can you imagine if Peter Pan Baby turns out right-handed? Who's gonna help/teach him to write?!)

I sometimes feel something rising and when I touch that part of my tummy, it's actually hard. And when I rub it, that part sorta goes down and softens. Peter Pan Daddy reckons it's Peter Pan Baby's head. Fun stuff yo!

3) I went for a haircut on Sunday and apparently I have a case of dandruff.

The guy that was blowing my hair asked me why do I have dandruff like I freaking know why I have dandruff? It's not something that you would go looking for on your own ok?!

I was a bit agitated by that question but since I'm trying to maintain my 'easily annoyed' hormones these days I told him that I'm pregnant and he said it's probably due to hormones.

He asked me to take care of my hair as heaps will fall off after giving birth. So not looking forward to that. I already have an emerging bald spot.

Last nite, I went to the shop that sells hair care products at a lower price compared to salons/malls and decided to purchase the Kerastase shampoo & conditioner.

The current brand that I'm using right now is Joico and I kind of can't stand the smell. Makes me a little nauseous everytime I smell it in the shower.

Not that it stinks, it's just me. I still feel nauseous whenever I smell certain stuff.

4) I can't really stand oily food again. Especially fried noodles. Recently I've been leaning towards fishball soup noodles.

Pasta is still my all-time favourite. But it has be the ones that are cream or tomato-based.

5) I realise that my belly button is now halfway reaching the top. It's still inwards but it's slowly rising up and outwards *gulp* geli-nyer!!

6) I can't cross my legs for long nowadays. After a short while, I will get pins & needles.

7) My feet might have grown bigger slightly (or swollen maybe? Not too sure) because when I wear my flats, I can feel that they are a little tighter than usual.

I tend to wear slippers more often these days. My friend asked me the other day what shoes do I wear to work nowadays and I told her slippers. She was shocked. Aiyo, people pregnant yo!

She said I might not fit into my heels anymore even after giving birth as my feet may be too swollen. Thanks. I feel so much better. Hehe. But no worries. Anything for Peter Pan Baby!

8) I still feel very tired and sleepy all the time. Each morning is a serious battle to wake up at 7am.

But during weekends, I tend to wake up at around 10-11am. I can't seem to sleep past noon anymore.

But will need an afternoon nap during the weekends though.

9) I can't take really sourish juices anymore i.e. orange juices that are on the sour side; lime juice; lemon juice - it will cause really bad heartburn.

Chilli causes heartburn too but somehow I just can't quite give chilli up altogether. But have replaced meals that require chilli sauce with ketchup instead.

The other day I bought a mcChicken meal and asked for more tomato sauce because I thought that the boy would better understand what tomato sauce is as opposed to ketchup but he ended up giving me 4 packs of chilli sauce instead. So I was like "you don't have ketchup ah?". Then only he replaced them with packs of ketchup for me. Oh the irony of the people in our country.

10) Whenever I have the urge to pee, I would need to go immediately. But the pee would only be a little bit. And I'm not dehydrated because I do drink a lot of water. So where does all that water go to??

11) My fingers are getting kinda fat too. I have this ring that I used to wear on my middle finger because it was too loose for my fourth finger but now it leaves practically a scar on my middle finger and fits perfectly on my fourth finger.

That's all I can think of for now.

Will be on leave this Friday as it's my birthday weekend. Peter Pan Daddy's going to bring me to Universal Studios, Singapore just to look see because I'm too chicken to go on those adventurous rides and plus I'm pregnant.

Hope I can find cute baby stuff to buy for Peter Pan Baby! Can't wait! :)

I never fail to smile...

2010-04-23T21:36:00.006+08:00

... whenever I feel a bloop (small kick sorta?) from Peter Pan Baby.

I can be stressed, angry, upset, emo etc. but once he gives me a tiny bloop, it automatically lightens up my mood.

I keep telling Peter Pan Daddy that it feels weird. Like an a-l-i-e-n is inside of me.

And I usually spell out the word a-l-i-e-n when I tell Peter Pan Daddy because I'm worried Peter Pan Baby might be offended if he hears me calling him that (if he can hear us that is).

Better to be safe than sorry rite?

Anyhoo, a-l-i-e-n feeling or not, the bloopy feeling is... words just can't describe it. You'd have to have one on your own to really know what I mean :)

Over the weekend, I went back to get this cloth thingy for cleaning the baby's mouth:

I thought it would cost around RM10+ but it's freaking RM33.50 OK! I know we should just use a normal cloth instead but look at the bunny again! Too cute to resist!

Anomaly scan postponed...

2010-04-23T18:21:00.004+08:00

Went for the usual check-up today at 18 1/2 weeks. I thought that we would be doing the anomaly scan (detailed scan done from 18-22 weeks to check for organ defects) today but ended up we have to see another doctor for it.

Our doctor at Prince Court Hospital was like "Oh, you want to do the scan?" when Peter Pan Daddy asked him about it. I thought it was sorta a scan everyone needs to go through, no?

Well, we decided to go ahead with it anyways. Not that it's going to change anything if we find out anything but at least we can prepare ourselves and make sure 100% that Peter Pan Baby is A-ok!

So we'll be going back in 2 weeks to see a Fetal Maternal Doctor that does the scan for a full 20-30 minutes.

Meanwhile, we did the normal scan and Peter Pan Baby is growing right on track. He weighs approximately 260 grams and is head down.

Doctor said that it'd be good if he stays in this position until we reach full term as this is the best position to deliver. If he shifts position the very last minute, then it'd be hard to get him outta there.

Whatever it is, I hope that Peter Pan Baby is comfortable head down as I keep thinking that all his body weight is putting so much pressure on his neck so isn't that a wee bit uncomfortable? But I will always remember Peter Pan Daddy telling me that Peter Pan Baby's floating in there.

And up until now our doctor still can't see Peter Pan Baby's gender. He reckons it's a boy from the last visit but wasn't sure and today, he even used the 3D scan but Peter Pan Baby's legs were closed. Apparently Peter Pan Baby's closed position today is worse than the last visit.

So it's a good thing we found the doctor at Tawakal Hospital :) A big thank you to GK for telling me about that doctor.

All is well for now. Our CD of Peter Pan Baby's photos today is being burnt by them as there are a few files so we can only get it back in 4 weeks (our next check-up) hence no new photos of his progress at the moment.

But I did see tiny bubbles - not sure if Peter Pan Baby was blowing them but nevertheless, he's the most miraculous thing I've ever saw in my life (not that I'm suaku never seen other ultrasounds before but it somehow just feels different when it's your own - especially him being inside of you).

And I need to state this - yup, I've jumped onto the bandwagon of talking non-stop about baby stuff. Now I fully understand why first-time mothers are this excited. I'm slowly becoming one of them. But I shall pace myself to not become so obsessed with it. All that matters is that the baby is healthy & normal (and *koff* superbly cute pls).

P/s: I also asked the doctor about getting a flu shot for the prevention of H1N1 but he said that since it's relatively new, he wouldn't know how safe it is for pregnant women. He suggested that IF I were to get H1N1 only then treat it. Other than that, just drink plenty of water and keep clean.

Will be on leave

2010-04-21T20:54:00.003+08:00

Will be on leave tomorrow as the area at work right behind me is undergoing some form of mini renovation.

First they tore off the old carpets which caused the place to be super dusty and then they had to even out the floor with that grinding machine which caused a fog. This happened on Tuesday and unfortunately I had to breathe it all in (apart from covering my nose with a tissue paper).

Then they started laying the cement on the floor and when I went into office yesterday, the smell was so strong that each time I turned a little, I could whiff a smell of it.

Today, they glued new carpets on and the smell of it was really really bad. I brought a mask and it only helped filter out the smell by say 5%? It got so bad that even when I exited the office door to go to the toilet, I could still smell it.

The smell is on the whole eff-ing floor!!! I could only remove my mask when I was in the lift.

I really am so worried that all the dust and glue smell would affect Peter Pan Baby somehow that I have decided to shift my scan next week to this week instead. I really hope nothing's wrong with him.

Us complaining to higher Management didn't help one bit. She even suggested to other colleagues of mine to take leave like what I did.

First, we are getting killed slowly then we have to use our own annual leave to save ourselves. Can things get more absurd? I'm really speechless.

On another note, I had a really spicy lunch today. I decided to tapau capati since it's been ages I tapau-ed from the indian uncle and he's always been real friendly to me and my colleague.

So I took the usual - 2 pieces of capati (ok not so usual-lah because I used to eat only 1 before I was pregnant) flooded in fish curry and I seriously mean flooded ok because I was worried that it might not be enough for 2 pieces so I kept scooping curry into the styrofoam box + tofu fried with chilli + 1 sambal hard-boiled egg.

So guess which hero has heartburn now? One guess only.

*gulps down hot water*

18 weeks

2010-04-20T09:34:00.003+08:00

1) Weighed this morning: 56.8 kg (gained 2.8 kgs so far)

2) Still look fat rather than pregnant:

3) Don't have much appetite still. But do try to eat during meal times. And whenever I feel a gastric forming.

4) Wounds take ages to heal. I scraped my knee and had a paper cut on my finger weeks ago and until now, both still aren't completely healed.

5) Don't pee as often but when I gotta pee, I REALLY gotta pee! Only wake up once or twice a night nowadays as opposed to 2-3 times in the first trimester.

6) Will have lower backache each time I wake up from a long sleep. Upper back mostly hurts after work.

7) Still feel bloops each night when I lie down. Sometimes little mini bloops when I'm sitting at my desk at work.

8) I get easily annoyed these days. Especially at work. I keep wanting to punch this guy although he doesn't piss me off everyday but just one of those feelings and probably him being his gross self contributes to it too.

9) Am still very tired & sleepy. Once I reach home, I would want to sleep straight away but of course I try not to because that would mean wasting my nights away. But I do spend a good amount of time sleeping each weekend. I seem to be able to only last 2-3 hours max outside then I would need to go home to sleep. I hope Peter Pan Baby would be a sleepyhead too! :)

10) Will be doing my 20-week scan next week and I'm real nervous. Please pray for me that all is and will be ok.

Dear Lord, please be with us and watch over us always. I pray that Peter Pan Baby is healthy & normal and that this pregnancy will be a breeze for the both of us. I also pray that there are and will be no complications and that I can bring Peter Pan Baby to full term. Amen.

Baby shopping weekend

2010-04-19T11:22:00.008+08:00

We started looking at baby stuff last weekend for Peter Pan Baby as many of my friends advised me to do so now before I get really huge.

So here are our first few purchases from Bangsar Village....

There was this new shop called Adams Kids (I think it's new?) and we bought Peter Pan Baby monster bodysuits:

Then we went to Toys R Us to get some toys for Peter Pan Daddy's niece's birthday and I ended up purchasing the below:

- nasal aspirator & nail clipper (damn cheap. I saw a nail clipper at Bebehaus going for RM50!!) -

- some disposable multi-use pads that can be used for burping, changing & feeding since I foresee I'd be quite lazy to wash hankies often *ahem* -

On Sunday we went to check out Mothercare at BSC. Wow! That place has really lots of cool stuff! I even found this:

- Baby bather -

I first saw this on some girl's blog from Singapore and I thought that we couldn't find it here in Malaysia but Mothercare has it!!

You just need to lay your baby on the chair as the chair has tiny holes for the water to go through when you splash him with water :)

So there, we don't have to get a bathtub already and we did confirm this with the kakak at Mothercare too hehe.

Also, we got Peter Pan Baby the below sleepsuits:

They're long sleeves and have little covers at the ends of the sleeves to act as mittens. So cute right?

And that's all we bought so far. We still have a whole long list of more expensive items to get *gulp*

My episode with piles

2010-04-16T16:04:00.004+08:00

Tuesday night I think I had a bit of constipation. I was trying real hard to go in the toilet and just as I pushed out a hard stool, I think it kinda scraped my skin.

And so I was bleeding. As in each time I wiped, there was blood on the tissue paper.

It didn't stop on Wednesday so I decided to take leave on Thursday to go see the doctor and perhaps get a cream for my pile.

I already had the small little pile before pregnancy and I wasn't sure if the hard stool aggravated the pile or it was just my skin that got scraped.

Anyhoo, my usual gynae isn't at Prince Court on Thursdays so I went back to the terror doctor at Tawakal Hospital.

The night before I was kinda hoping that the doctor wouldn't ask to examine my pile/butt but on Thursday morning I decided to clean myself thoroughly just in case the doctor would really want to examine there.

When we went into the doctor's room, he asked us why we were back so fast as it was only a 1-week gap since we last saw him.

I told him that I just needed to get some cream for my pile and he asked me if it was bleeding and I told him it was and then he straight away went like 'let me see'.

I straight away burst out laughing out of embarrassment and the doctor was like 'what's so funny about a bleeding pile?!'.

Ok ok, people nervous-lah what?

So as I laid on my side on the bed of humiliation, the doctor was looking through around the butthole area and kept saying 'pile? nothing also?' and finally when he found the tiny pile, he flicked it and went like 'oh! this one'.

He practically flicked it ok? Like a deflated balloon.

Sigh.

I was beyond embarrassment.

And there he could still ask me whether I wanted a pill to be stuffed up my butthole or a cream to apply instead.

I mean what could be more humiliating than a doctor flicking your pile? Him inserting a pill into your @sshole!

So I chose the latter.

And Peter Pan Daddy is suppose to help me apply the cream as I can't see the pile on my own. So that's what husbands are for.

After flicking the pile episode, Peter Pan Daddy could still ask to view Peter Pan Baby. More moments of embarrassment to endure in that room.

But after seeing Peter Pan Baby on the screen (although he was in an awkward position head down but doctor said nothing to worry about), I don't mind getting more piles flicked just to ensure that Peter Pan Baby is alright.

I love you Peter Pan family!!! *muacks*

Peter Pan Baby

2010-04-16T10:29:00.006+08:00

So a few people have been asking me why I named this blog 'Peter Pan'. The story is like this...

When I went for my usual check-up at 15 1/2 weeks, I was hoping that my gynae could already see whether it was a boy or girl.

But as he was scanning, he told us to give him 1 more month to confirm.

This didn't affect Peter Pan Daddy one bit as he didn't want to find out in the first place saying that he wants to keep it a surprise. Me on the other hand, who is dying to get that pink Juicy Couture baby bag cannot wait to find out.

So the week after that, I kept researching for other doctors that could view the gender at an early stage and even asked one of my friends where to do the 3D scan.

She gave me the contact at Sunway Medical Centre and when I called, they didn't want to take me in as I was only 16 weeks plus. She told me to come back around 23 weeks for the scan instead.

Like that I might as well just wait for my own doctor to confirm right?!

Anyhoo, last Friday, I woke up with a really bad diarrheoa. Then at work, it changed to watery diarrheoa and it didn't help that I had heartburn too.

So my colleague told me about her friend that went to this gynae who was able to tell her friend's baby's gender at 15 weeks! Damn terror or what this doctor!

So since I was having diarrheoa like mad, and I needed to get an mc, I decided to go see this terror doctor who is attached with Tawakal Hospital.

Woah, that hospital is damn dodgy can? It's like a row of shoplots converted into a 'hospital'. Super old school.

There is actually a new building behind it and apparently that's where the new Tawakal Hospital will be at so I guess they finally realised they had to upgrade huh?

Anyways, as I arrived at the Tawakal gyane's clinic, (oh btw, no need to book appointment one apparently it's all walk-in) they asked me to take a urine test.

And this urine test is damn gross because the nurse asked me to pee into this urine cup that was sitting on their toilet basin and mind you, it was already wet when I picked it up thinking they probably rinsed it before I went in.

So after pee-ing, I screwed on the cap, opened the toilet door and the nurse was already standing right in front of my face. She asked me to unscrew the cap, then she dipped this strip thingy into my urine and then asked me to dispose off the urine and wash the cup!!!!

GROSS OR NOT YOU TELL ME?! Prince Court Hospital actually uses a brand new urine cup each time and there this Tawakal place reuses their cups and it's not even sterilised ok! Just rinse with running water from the tap *faints*

Anyways, urine test story aside, when I went in to see the doctor, he was a very nice man - old but patient. He asked me to go onto the bed and started scanning.

Then he asked us whether we already know the gender. I already warned Peter Pan Daddy before we went in not to burst my bubble about wanting to know the gender so he kept quiet and I answered, 'no, can we know now?'. And the doctor told us, 'of course!' and asked one of his student nurses to guess the gender.

And tah-dah...

- it's a boy -

So bye bye pink colour clothes. Bye bye pink colour Juicy baby bag. Bye bye pink/purple toys.

Hello blue and Thomas the Train.

And the doctor said he was 100% sure of it. And the reason why he's that terror is because his machine is 4D (ooooooo).

Since we already found out the gender, we were going through names that night online.

When we came to the alphabet 'P', I saw Peter and went like 'PETER PAN!'.

Peter Pan Baby can be 'Peter Tan' (pronounce the 'Tan' as 'ten' in a hongkie accent and we're good to go!) which rhymes with Peter Pan.

But obviously his real name isn't going to be Peter :) We already have a name in mind and until a better one comes along, we're sticking to the one we are both ok with.

So that's where my inspirasi came about to name this blog. And now you all know why 'Peter Pan'.

17 weeks

2010-04-14T12:33:00.004+08:00

Today, I am 17 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Update of the 2nd trimester so far:

1) I stopped eating tom yam noodles after week 13 and don't crave them anymore. In fact, I find them too oily now.

2) I am still tired and sleepy. The crap about 2nd trimester being your most energetic period is seriously crap (for me that is).

3) I've recently developed pregnancy rashes on my tummy area. It comes and goes. Doesn't itch. Some dots especially near the belly button do hurt at times but it's just the skin area hurting.

Initially I thought that it was due to me eating seafood which caused an allergic reaction but my doctor told me that it's pretty common and can get quite ugly for some women. Which makes me think twice about taking photos of my belly.

4) I look more fat than pregnant. My tummy is bigger at this point in time now. Actually I just realised that it was pretty huge last night after dinner. I drank a few bowls of soup so I guess the bloatedness added to the image.

I didn't think that I'd be this big until after the 5th month at least. I do hope that I won't get too big. I know now isn't the time to be vain but I secretly am. Which is also why I haven't been taking photos of myself pregnant.

5) I have gained 3kgs so far. I started out at 54kg and am now hovering between 56.7-57kg. And I don't know how accurate this reading is because I always weigh myself in the mornings when I'm less heavy and without clothes on.

6) I started getting heartburn. Initially I thought it was gastric because it kind of feels the same but that's just absurd as I keep eating so how can it be gastric right? So I guess the next best thing was to diagnose it as heartburn.

But of course I did confirm it with my doctor and he gave me some medication for it. Until today, whenever I have heartburn, I still do not take the medication. Just a bit wary about taking medication while I'm pregnant.

7) Passing motion has been ok for me so far (I think) and I'm not sure if it's due to the Anmum Materna milk that I've been taking because it says on the box that it helps 'sembelit'.

8) I've stopped taking my folic acid pills as the doctor prescribed me this pre-natal vitamin called Obimin Pluz. Apparently it has everything in it. 1 pill kao tim liao.

9) I started feeling flutters around 15 weeks. Like a butterfly flying around inside my tummy. Then it sorta changed to a bloopy feeling from 16 weeks onwards. It feels like what my friend described it - porridge boiling - bloop bloop bloop but the bubbles don't burst type of feeling.

I usually feel the bloops at night when I'm lying on my bed watching tv. Peter Pan Daddy has felt a bloop already. It happens sometimes quite frequently at one go at the same area so I'm not too sure if Peter Pan Baby is hiccup-ing or actually kicking/moving.

Or if I'm just imagining stuff and it's really gas bubbles.

10) My nails have been growing at super fast speed. And I still have my gel nails. And this is the only thing that I wasn't able to give up so I did consult my doctor first whether it was safe to continue filling my gel nails.

Normally I would go for gel filling every 4 weeks but recently it has become 3 weeks. I can't state the same positiveness about the strength of my nails though as my toenails have been chipping quite frequently.

Well, that's all I can think of for now......

My memories of the 1st trimester

2010-04-13T12:08:00.002+08:00

Many changes with the body. And also mentally.

People say you become more weepy during pregnancy but I can't really comment on that because even pre-pregnancy I was already a crybaby. So let's just leave that point out.

Other than that, I realised I started getting nauseous. I couldn't stand the smell of anything! My mom's perfume; any type of food smell and I really had no preference for food.

As in I couldn't make up my mind what to eat for meals even when I felt hungry.

People had morning sickness, mine was evening sickness. Each night as I was about to go to bed, I'd feel like vomitting. But so far throughout the 1st trimester, I only puked twice.

The evening sickness kind of worked for me as I preferred to feel sick at home rather than at work.

During the first few weeks of the first trimester I was only alright with tom yam noodles I don't know why. Other food were like so-so, ok ok, or no, not at all.

I hated beef. And I still do at this point in time because I just tried the spaghetti beef bolognaise last weekend and felt a bit sick after. So I guess McDonald's has lost me as a loyal customer for their double cheeseburgers.

I couldn't take oily food. I missed shark's fin deeply and I kind of had it only once a week as opposed to whenever I wanted.

Funny how I used to be a fan of ice-cream and cakes but ever since I got pregnant, I don't really fancy them anymore. I even passed on gelato when Peter Pan Daddy had his share. I guess that's great in a way that I don't put on those extra calories :)

My skin became really dry. My arms had tiny bumps that were gross to touch or brush against. My legs had flaky white skin and some parts turned blotchy red. I don't usually use body moisturisers but ever since I became pregnant, I had to invest in them.

I've started using the Nivea night whitening body milk as one of my friends commented that I looked darker. Does pregnancy cause your skin to turn yellow/dark for no apparent reason?

My lower abdomen area on both sides were hurting throughout the first trimester. I always thought it was 'it' happening but I guess my body/ligaments were stretching to accommodate Peter Pan Baby.

Backache was and still is persistent. I can sleep for the whole day and still wake up feeling like I've just chopped down a tree.

I can't imagine how my back would feel like when I get bigger in the next few months.

Tummy was bloated 24/7. My friend told me to get a good look at it one last time because I will never see it that size again.

I kept pee-ing every hour. And that led to some of my colleagues speculating whether I was pregnant.

Let's move on to hair:

1) Hair on the head is damn ugly now. My black roots are growing and I can't do anything about them as it is unsafe to dye your hair during pregnancies. I mean that's what I heard.

However, my hair gets oily less quickly and when I shower, I don't seem to shed that much hair compared to pre-pregnancy days. Good stuff! :)

2) Hair on eyebrows and underarms grow at a slower (and I really mean slowwwwwwwwer) pace. I'm real happy with this as I don't need to pluck them that often anymore and since I'm pregnant, I can't go for my IPL underarm treatments either. Plus point of being pregnant woohoo!

3) Hair near my belly button area suddenly appeared outta nowhere. I seriously do have Winnie the Pooh's tummy. Big and furry that is.

4) Hair on my legs - I never had any, but I realise a few strands emerged *yikes*.

Also, a few pantang things here and there but none of them bother me that much except a tiny one: I'm not supposed to watch ugly, ghostly, gross movies.

I seriously miss horror movies. It's getting kind of boring watching romance and comedy shows only.

Well, that's all I can remember about the first trimester for now. I've been kind of forgetful these days so I must say that the above list isn't that all complete.

But whatever it is, I am now embracing my 2nd trimester with a brave heart *stands up tall*

:)

The first visit and beyond!

2010-04-13T10:29:00.010+08:00

We went to see the gynae for the 1st time when I was 4 1/2 weeks.

The doctor said that it was too early to tell. And asked me whether I did a pregnancy test. Of course-lah if didn't I simply psycho myself that I'm pregnant meh?

I told him yes, I did. And he asked me how many tests did I take, when did I take them, why do I really think I'm pregnant (hello!!) etc. etc. if don't believe me just do a scan-lah haiyor.

And so he did. A transvaginal ultrasound though. And it felt a bit painful and geli because he was swerving the stick here and there to find whatever that he was looking for.

And while he was still swerving the stick, he said he might need to do a blood test to confirm as he couldn't see anything. Just when he said that, he found the sac.

BUTTTTTTTT... he found a retroplacenta clot too. I don't know specifically what it is but the doctor told us not to get our hopes up too high as that clot may affect the placenta from functioning.

So it was basically a 50/50 chance of the pregnancy continuing.

My weeks were ruined after that. I was super down thinking of the worst case scenario (which I always do just so in case if it really does happen, I am prepared for it); reading stories about others with clots; hoping; praying; discussing with friends; weeping to Peter Pan Daddy and kept asking him 'what if?'.

It wasn't helping that I was spotting/bleeding too. Each time I went to the toilet and when I wiped, there would be brown stains on the tissue paper.

Sometimes, it was light red dots and it really freaked me out seriously.

Then fast forward-lah ok because I didn't record the stats down and I really can't remember heee heee heee - I think approximately around 7 or 8 weeks, there was more blood on the tissue paper like period dark type of blood and it took me a few wipes before I could clean myself up.

I totally panicked and already told myself, this is it. It was a Saturday afternoon and our gynae only works half days on Saturdays so we tried calling his handphone but it was switched off.

Then we called the hospital hoping that he would still be there but he wasn't. Bummer.

I felt kind of hopeless but the hospital was super efficient as they asked us whether it was an emergency and yes-lah I would assume it's an emergency right I'm bleeding more than normal?

So they connected us to the doctor straight away and Peter Pan Daddy managed to speak to him. He told us to go in the next day (on a Sunday) although the clinic wasn't open but he'll be there to see us. Super nice of him ok!

The wait was excruciating. I couldn't sleep that whole Saturday or do anything else for that matter as I kept thinking how painful it'd be if 'it' happens.

But finally Sunday came. It was a matter of whether we'd leave the doctor's room happy or sad.

He told us that he doesn't have a magic pill for all this to go away or stop it from happening but all he could do was to do a scan and to see if everything's alright.

And IT WAS! Peter Pan Baby had a heartbeat already and the doctor kind of couldn't see the clot anymore so he assumed that the bleeding was due to the clot passing through.

- Peter Pan Baby at approximately 7-8 weeks -

I prayed so hard for it to be ok. I even prayed with my baptism candle (according to my brother the candle is only used to pray for things that you really need help with) and I guess the Lord has been watching over Peter Pan Baby all this while.

Thank you Jesus for the strength that you have given me so far. I continue to pray that You will watch over us and ensure that Peter Pan Baby and I will have a smooth pregnancy throughout and that Peter Pan Baby will be a healthy and normal (and if possible uber cute) child.

Amen!

Pregnant

2010-04-12T16:38:00.000+08:00

So I think I should blog pretty often as I have a lot of catching up to do since the first day I found out that I was pregnant.

Peter Pan Daddy and I have always talked about having kids once we get married. He wants 3, I want 2. We haven't really agreed on the number but whatever it is we know that we will be real happy if we get even 1.

After our wedding last November, we started trying for a baby mainly because I want to be a young mommy (which totally fails because I turn 28 in approximately 17 days) and I was worried that I couldn't conceive as I've heard so many stories out there these days due to our lifestyle and eating habits.

So in January, on the 10th to be exact (and I remember this because Peter Pan Daddy went to buy 4D), it was the day that my period was due. But it never came. And my period usually is (or was) quite accurate - 28 days max it just happens.

I decided to take a pregnancy test - the Clear Blue digital one which PC handed over to me as she was already pregnant at that time.

It says to pee on the stick but being kiasu that I do not pee directly on it at a normal stream, I dipped it into a cup of urine instead.

And I even collected Starbucks cups for this purpose (yes, I was that eager to be pregnant).

So after dipping the stick, it says to leave the stick on a flat surface for approximately a few minutes before the results show and while I was still cleaning up after the cup of pee near the basin countertop, it suddenly flashed to this:

My heart stopped for a second because I wasn't even ready to read the results and there it was showing me a positive sign!

I quickly rushed out of the bathroom to ask Peter Pan Daddy to come take a look and both of us stared at it for a while.

I can't quite describe the feeling. I was so so happy! I was practically jumping and hugging Peter Pan Daddy although I wasn't quite sure what his expression was as I was too giddy from trying to process the thought that I am actually pregnant!

Then I quickly got Peter Pan Daddy to make an appointment with this gynae at Prince Court Hospital because a few of my former colleagues went to that gynae and apparently he got really good ratings.

I then slowly packed up the stick in its original packaging to dispose it off then turned to ask Peter Pan Daddy whether we should try another test just to be sure.

Yes, I need a lot of reassurance in life and even if a test is 99% accurate, there is still that 1% room for error.

So we tried another pregnancy test kit which shows either a positive or negative sign:

And that confirmed my suspicion of the first test!

Boy, was I beaming the whole day through that day.

And I thank God for this miraculous gift of lil' life inside of me that He has granted us.